i saw a cute boy today while i was getting bruincafe. I'm sure we all had those moments when our hearts skipped when your eyes meet, and you quickly glance away, hoping that he didn't see you trying to catch a better glimpse of him. LOL i hate to admit it, but yes, he was pretty cute. HAHAHA

but that's not the reason for this post. This short encounter reminded me of how crushes start. I want my heart to flutter as i open up the bible to read God's love letter to me. I dont have to worry about him catching my eye because I know he loves me for who i am and I have NOTHING to hide. I don't have to worry about how i look, or what i say, or what my first impression comes off as. Instead, i just have to embrace him and accept his love with the return of my heart. Just as my heart skipped for that boy today, I want my heart to to seek God every second of my day, and not to fill my minds with worldy thoughts, but to fill it with prayers and God's blessings.

Dang, i really want to go back to how it all started, how i came to God and was filled with peace and love for the Lord who poured his love and grace over me. I want to love going to the word and feel the peace and joy overwhelming my heart all over again.

It's time to forget about the logistics of this life and focus on the important things...

College is, as Janice would say, "awkward nations." SERIOUSLYY.
Maybe it's because we never mastered the art of holding a natural conversation... or it can be because we just don't know how to approach people. But i think it's mainly because we try to find a similarity with people, and sometimes when we can't think of anything, we find RANDOM correlations.

I was walking to class and heard this today...
"Hi! nice to meet you. What phone do you have? (person takes out phone from pocket) OH... ohhh.. i thought we would have the same phone... okay bye!"

If UCLA had a class about the art of awkwardness and a way to overcome it, it would be filled in a couple seconds.

People's acceptance weighs a lot more to our self-confidence than we want to admit. I've realized that when I feel close and friendly with people, I feel more at ease with myself. But when I feel as an outcast, I try to keep to myself as much as possible and not make a fool of myself.

Words are powerful. From the servantteam leadership training, one thing i remember is that we know what our gifts and talents are from 1) our inner passion and interest and 2) peer's confirmation. People's response to the things we enjoy can either make or break us. But in the same way, criticism and side comments that are meant for jokes can be a confirmation to our insecurities. I know i'm pretty much stating the obvious, but i think a lot of the time we forget to be careful with our words. I seriously need to work on this and use myself to encourage and uplift others rather than dragging them down with me.

"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouth, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen." Ephesians 4:29